A hard week 9/22/2019

This week has been one riddled with homesickness and anxiety. My school work is doing pretty well and I am going to all my classes (Grandma tell grandpa the shocking news). I have all A's still and have not turned anything in late. 
I have gone to the gym every day this week which has been really nice. It's especially nice that I don't have to deal with other people as its rare that others are there. After all there is nothing worse than sweating and panting on a treadmill while someone else is doing the same. Hopefully, I have not jinxed myself and people will all the sudden storm the gym. 

Despite it being an overall successful week I still have struggled with feeling alone and vary anxious. I would like to thank my genes for this particular struggle of being an anxiety-ridden wreck. Still like most trials, it is often a blessing in disguise. While I have been anxious this whole week I also have been more diligent in my prayers and scripture reading. I have more constantly sought God's comfort and finally made time to go to the temple with my family. The temple is truly the most peaceful place on earth and will always give you a little something to keep you going until next time you can sit quietly in the warmth of God's house.

I also have been thinking a great deal about Christ this week. Recently I realized something about Christ and the sacrifice he made for all of us. We all know Christ willingly bore all our struggles and that he bled from every pore and that he was placed on a cross by those that should have rejoiced at his coming. Christ took all the suffering, all the sin, all the pain that any of us would ever feel and he did so we could be with him. But something I realized was that Christ's great eternal sacrifice did not ask for him to eternally suffer. He made the sacrifice and was the better for it but his great suffering did come to an end. He gets to live with heavenly father in eternal happiness and purpose. No suffering lasts forever, even all the suffering of all gods children will eventually come to an end. Suffering has a great purpose in God's plan as we grow best when we are put in a hard situation, but it will end and we will be better for it. 

Sorry, this has been kinda a mopey email but it's been that kinda week. All your prayers and love are beyond appreciated. Also, please everyone pray for my roommate, Anna Ricks. Her grandma died this week.

love Rachel


The nice new sweater that mom got me.



My very tired self during math class 


The painting I did this week.


Playing apples to apples with the roommates 


Saturday night dinner this week was made by Anna Zhu. It was fried rice and some boiled veggies. It was so delicious

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